Its getting harder and harder to deal with the loss. I have so far been able to partition off most of my feelings and not deal with them but that is not going to last for long. The shell I have created gets thinner each day and I am afraid that once the sadness escapes it will be overwhelming.
I have too many things to do and too much to keep straight to let it win, at least right now. When it is finally over, I will grieve. Harder and longer than I can imagine right now.
I have to go, the tears are welling and I have to wait with those.
May 9, 2006
May 5, 2006
TIme to rest
The Monarch. I had no idea this place existed 6 days ago. Now it is my favorite building in Lincoln. Finally, my mother is in a place she feels safe and peaceful and can rest.
I feel like a great weight has lifted, and a burden put down. I also feel like I have been vindicated of every crappy thing I said or did in one swoop - I have helped make her happy in her most dire time of need.
I can rest too.
I feel like a great weight has lifted, and a burden put down. I also feel like I have been vindicated of every crappy thing I said or did in one swoop - I have helped make her happy in her most dire time of need.
I can rest too.
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